August 19, 2003

These days are stinky...

I haven't written in a while (again), because I've been waiting for something good to happen. I didn't want to continually write about bullshit... about stress and decisions and work. I wanted to write about exciting things. I wanted to report a promotion or a great movie or how fabulous my personal life is.... but that won't happen either. Everything IS stressful and confusing. What I always thought was solid and strong may not be. What once made me happy is making me feel uncertain and frustrated.

I'm at that point in my life where I just want things to fall into place. I want to be lead in the direction that I'm supposed to be traveling in. I want to know in my heart that I am doing the right thing. Maybe I am being lead in a certain direction but I just don't understand it .... or am fighting that direction.

The next few months will definitely be interesting. One thing is for sure, I cannot WAIT for my NY trip. I'm going in November for a week. Hell YEAH! Now that is a good thing! I miss all of my east coast friends. Plus, I really need to go experience the World Trade Center... or where it once stood. I need to see it. I want to see everyone I worked with at Merrill Lynch and hear their stories. So, that is the plan.... eat, drink, visit, and see some shows.

That's all for now. Hopefully more good news to come soon.

Posted by Jenny at August 19, 2003 08:13 AM